2014 has finally come to an end. 2014 has been the most eye opening year of my entire existence and I will always remember this year as what I titled this post. God blessed me this year with many beautiful things as well as difficult lessons. He’s guided me through the darkest of days and enlightened me to keep on going. In these 365 I changed more than I did in high school and that took over four years of my life. This was my last year as a teenager but it felt more adult than it did anything else.
Courage was something I had to find and build up throughout 2014. Whether it was building up enough to start my YouTube Channel or having enough courage to face some big-girl problems head on. Courage was with me this year and so was strength. God knows I’ve needed it and He has graced me with it. There were many losses in 2014. I lost a very dear friend of mine that knew me from birth. Cancer took him, like it does to many other innocent souls, and there was nothing to stop it. Quite a few people I went to school with passed away this year as well. God has many new angels. One of them hit home because well…I sat in a classroom with him for 4 years. He was serving in the United States Army and he was as Patriotic as I am. His mother and closer group of friends did not deserve that strike of pain. Nobody does. #PinoStrong.
I am NOWHERE near where I want to end up in life, yet again I’m only twenty and I cannot be expected to have my life together. However, I’m working disgustingly hard to get where I want with the Grace of God. 2014 blessed me with the best “first job” I think I could have ever had. I have been there almost a year now and I still do not dread going there. Those children make me so happy and grateful. They are genuine, funny, lots of work, and fascinated by my existence. How fascinated? One little girl LOVES that I wear make up so much that she bought me a set of tinted lip balms. That’s what I like to call love. I featured one of them on here. His name is Lucas and he is still battling Leukemia. If all goes well, he should be done with chemo in six weeks. That boy melts my heart. He melted before his diagnosis and now well…he fills it with joy when he screams my name. 2014 taught me that children need to be well taken care of. Children matter and as adults we need to make sure their childhoods are as educational and magical as possible. At least that’s what I think.
Speaking of children…my best friend is pregnant. She caught me off guard. Very off guard. She was there for me when Roly was gone last year and at the beginning of this one. At one point, her husband was deployed and Roly was stationed outside of Florida. We were each other’s support system. She’s pregnant now and her husband is aware that about 30% of that child is mine.
The greatest lesson 2014 taught me is that sometimes things don’t go as planned because well…MUCH better things and people are to come. I let go of all the negative and draining people in my life. Little by little. Painful? Absolutely. Change usually is but the show went on and with a much better cast. I realized that with all these unexpected deaths going on around me that those around me need to be BEYOND cherished. My parents are not permanent fixtures on this planet. (Nobody is.) Death is very permanent. It sucks. Really sucks, but it just made me appreciate my parents and the amazing people in my life even more.
When we started…not ONE person thought we’d pass two weeks. On November 16th, 2014 we made four years together. He finished his Military Occupational School, we went to the USMC Ball for the very first time, and we were pretty productive teenagers in 2014. It was a tough road for us as individuals, but we had each other and that helped us get through it all. Between him, my parents, and a few people I’ve met this year…I prevailed in 2014 and “killed the bear” in the words of my high school Criminal Justice teacher.
I can never thank them enough for their support, wit, and wholesome advice/well wishes.
I pray for all those families I know that are aching right now. A lot of things have hit us in the face like a brick, but I’m collecting bricks and building a castle. You’re all invited for Dunkin Donuts French Vanilla Coffee or Cafe Con Leche.
2014…you were good and you sucked. I’m glad you’re gone, but thanks for stopping by and teaching me all the things you did.
Stay humble, lovelies.
God Bless & Be Happy!